goodbye

i feel so down
i feel so stupid
i feel so betrayed
i feel so unloved
i feel so rejected
no time for regrets
no time for anger
my heart is so tired
so tired of begging
so tired of forgiving
so tired of accepting
so tired of crying
last sunday i was so sorry for the things ive done...
the homily really touched me and i prayed hard...
i entrusted everything to God
its hard to trust especially when you have been deceited a lot of times
i let go of all my worries and pain... and i forgave
i said that i'll learn how to trust even if im filled with doubt
i prayed that He guides me... and if anything goes wrong its gonna be up to Him
i guess my prayer was answered... maybe its His way of saying that something is not right
i know my faults... pride... i have none...
i know a lot of things contributed to what i am now and what this has turned out to be
no time for regrets
no time for anger
im going to move on... its not gonna be easy but i know that i have to be strong
too much pain
too much tears
too much rejection
too much lies
too much deceit
trust, honesty and openness go hand in hand
the world is not perfect but i can choose to be happy
i've been here before i was younger then and i survived
i haven't lost hope on better things
thank you... i am sorry... God bless us.