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lucky

2009-01-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

lovin' this heartful song by two great artists...

by Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

On the 8th day of Christmas...

2009-01-01T07:30:00.001+08:00

Happy Christmas and a Prosperous New Year Happy Three Kings na rin haha.

When I first arrived in SG, most of the Filipinos say that there's no Christmas spirit in the Land of the Merlion. That is why lots of Filipinos go home for Christmas (including me :P) even if the airfare is almost double the price. Of course for me our home country will always be the best place to spend the holidays. But I think it is not entirely true when they say that you won't feel the joy of the season overseas. As I ponder about it, the Christmas spirit is there, only that it is different.

*Disney Christmas @ Changi airport, SG

If in the Philippines Christmas is about family gatherings, Christmas carols and puto bumbong; in SG it is about friendship, multi cultural celebrations and Pinoy unity. When we talk about the holidays, shopping is not the only common denominator between these two countries. There is also Simbang Gabi in SG. However, it is more like Visita Iglesia since attendees should hear the mass from ten different churches. What makes this Simbang Gabi extra special is Father Angel's arroz caldo. Haha... yes, food comes for free. Thanks to the generosity of blessed Filipinos, they were able to feed thousands of churchgoers for ten nights with free arroz caldo, pancit, chicken with rice, champorado, sandwiches etc.

Despite the global crisis, the spirit of Christmas has always been there. Love, hope and sharing should always be there wherever we are. After all, it is Christ's birthday that we are celebrating. Let us not forget to pray for those people who were impacted by the recession; and also for those overseas workers who have been working so hard for their families or loved ones but weren't able to spend the holidays with them.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE

The Serenity Prayer

2008-08-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

12

2008-07-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

I've been having this countdown as status in my instant messenger accounts and a lot of my contacts have been asking me about it. I either answer them with 'secret' - to avoid lots of explaining haha or 'I'm going to Singapore.'

Yes, I'm leaving for Singapore on the 27th. I have already tendered my resignation to my current employer to become an OFW (naks). Two years ago, I was firm in telling a lot of people that I do not like the idea of working in another country; that I will never leave the Philippines for work. I'm the type of person who easily longs for things or people that I'm far from (that includes not only my family and friends, but also my cabinet, bed and clothes). I don't think I'm ready for US or Europe job opportunities but this one is just right for me. Singapore is just a 3-hour plane ride away from home.

I had the chance to visit Singapore last year. I have been to other Asian countries and I must say that I was most impressed with the Land of the Merlion. A lot of my friends have left the country to try their luck there. My bestfriend, Jen, used to live there and I guess she was one of the reasons why I have convinced myself that I want to work there. The contract that I signed is not over the top but it's enough to make me decide to go. I'm excited, scared, happy, sad and anxious all at the same time (o di ba kaloka haha).

I'll surely miss a lot of people and things here in the Philippines (except for gas and bigas prices). Please do a couple of things for me: pray for me and stay online :D (bawal manakot dahil takot na haha)

solitude

2008-05-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

Out of strength you slump and weep at the center of the earth,
you hope that someone notices you,
you wish that someone hears you out,
you wait for someone who can share the pain.
But... no matter how hard you grieve no one cares to listen...
the world won't stop revolving.

You look around and notice rushing passers by.
Each of them brings forth a gush of air.
Some are soothing, while others are scorching.
It is such a busy world.

You reflect on the years that have passed.
Despite the hardships, you survived... you will survive.

Now it's time to get up, join the busy passers by.
Be the one that causes the ripple on the river,
and enjoy everything while it lasts.

On the 11th day of Christmas

2008-01-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

It's the 11th day of Christmas... I've been wanting to post my Christmas and New Year wishes a few weeks ago (i.e. last year haha) but I've been quite busy with tons of holiday activities. Then I remembered, I posted my resolutions for 2007 here, let's see if I've been naughty or nice...

continue my violin lessons
- college of music doesn't offer a sched that fits my availability :(

~~be an active member of HOM~~
- i'm thinking that my SFC activities can cover up for this :P

stop being so 'pinky' (hindi ako mahilig sa pink lol)
- i can't...i really can't haha

~~work harder~~
- i hope my teammates will agree haha; i was able to take the necessary certifications and i was able to shift to the role that i really like ;)

~~be a gym buff~~
- i'll be more faithful to gold's... summer na eh :P

~~heal (and eventually have fun :P)~~
- lovin' it

~~learn how to drive~~
- wala naman sinabing 'without traffic violation' d ba? haha

~~buy my own car (second hand lang)~~
- i heart crystal

start my own business (hmmm haha)
- i thought that this is gonna be a tough one, and i was right haha

~~be happier :D~~
- no doubt about it, i looove 2007

I know this came a little late, but I still want to wish everyone a Happy Christmas, a Prosperous New Year, and a Joyful Three Kings.

I want to extend my greetings to the innocent kids who are victims of misfortune, to the prisoners who can't spend the holidays with their families and to our friends and loved ones who have gone abroad (they say that Paskong Pinoy is truly one of a kind).

Thanks to everyone who made my 2007 very meaningful, memorable and enriching... to you who made it special... and to the Almighty for the countless blessings that He never fails to provide.

sigh...

2007-12-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

... will do anything just to be there right now ...

Curfew

2007-11-29T14:54:00.000+08:00

A curfew will be implemented from 12 am until 5 am.

Im lucky enough to be working from home today. Not only because i'm spared from the possible heavy traffic tonight, but also because I'm able to watch the blow by blow account of what's happening in Makati while doing my work (news started at 11am and is still being shown up to now, 730pm). What happened was terrifying, confusing, and funny all at the same time haha.

*photo from news.bbc.co.uk

o di ba sosyal armored tank sa hotel lobby! onli in da Philippines
'Gloria o pagbabago?' - Trillanes; dati sa Oakwood ngayon Manila Pen... high end ang taste in fairness.
people in Manila Peninsula were evacuated to Shangri La Makati... hmm prang fun :P
Nemenzo and Father Reyes were there... a friend of mine asked me 'bakit ikaw di pa makirally para kang di UP'... di naman ako exempted sa trabaho pag nakirally, dati exempted sa classes eh wehehehe
when asked about what they were talking about behind closed doors, Nemenzo replied, 'wala pinapanood nila ung mga ngyayari sa TV.' hahaha naimagine ko, if they were watching everything on tv, eh di alam na nila ung tactics ng army, kulit ng media, but I admire their courage
members of the media were arrested, materials were confiscated... uhmmm 'freedom' of the press?
they decided to give what the government wants because they realized that military operations will push through no matter what - imagine the members of the media being suffocated with tear gas :(
ang award winning line ni Trillanes:

Trillanes: "Like soldiers, we are going to face this."
Reporter: "Sir, how are you going to face this?"
Trillanes: "Whatever."

you can try to kill me now, but I'll still admit that I voted for him haha. I thought that having him in the senate would be a thrill... he didn't disappoint me :P

a time for everything...

2007-09-25T11:04:00.000+08:00

There is a time for everything, and a
season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to
gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

... jaded ...

2007-09-06T17:24:00.000+08:00

from Jalda - originally "mare," then "old broken down mare," then "worthless person," now it means someone who has "been there, seen that, and done it all"
- wordreference

it might mean that you are so accustomed to something that it no longer excites or interests you
- yahoo answers

dulled or satiated by overindulgence; worn out or wearied, as by overwork or overuse; dissipated
French: épuisé
German: erschöpft
Spanish: agotado, cansado
- dictionary.com

worn out, wearied, or lacking enthusiasm; exhausted; cynically insensitive; made callous by experience
- wiktionary

you'll get jaded after a year of studying here in UP... seeing a flying dog won't surprise you.
- according to my Social Science professor back in college

jaded? past tense ba yan ni jade bwahahaha? (was she talking about the gemstone or the gay txtmate of our guy friend? ahaha whatever...)
- according to my crazy bestfriend :P

how can one become unjaded?
It's always fun to be child-like. It's nice to go back to those days when crying your heart out and laughing wildly aren't much of a big deal. It's great to be human... to feel.. to have emotions.

oh well... is this the effect of hearing Christmas songs as early as August? or seeing santa hats scattered at the mall because, as they say, it's already a 'ber' month?

The Maiden

2007-08-22T14:09:00.000+08:00

repost from a friend's blog... a wonderful poem written by a good friend and mentor... thanks anche :P

She has eyes as deeply moving as a mourning sea

When they close, its as if clouds refuse to breathe
Just so they could wait again for them to open
Only her gently glowing eyes can move them again

A bouquet of roses, her eyes rested willfully on
Its color vivid and comely as the velvet night sky
What does she think of beauty, be it a rose?
If color be like fragrance, does it not have all?

Only these flowers knew the sound of her heart
As the maiden kept them close to her, almost embracing
Enough to feel the tempo of heartbeats stop and start
Echo a chorus in stanzas segmentedly harmonizing

Was it sadness? No, it was too happy for that tune
Was it happiness? No, it was too silent for joyful voices
Yet all the words in the world fell short of a meaning
To describe this portrait of the maiden and the roses

She has eyes as deeply moving as a mourning sea ...
Cool and calming like the aftermath of a rainy day
And the roses that reached to touch those raindrops
It, and it alone knew what those eyes tried to say ...

prisoners

2007-07-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

I was fortunate enough to join the members of SFC's Prison Ministry in their service last week. I wasn't really shocked when I entered the penitentiary (yeah too much prison break episodes might have prepared me). Kidding aside, what surprised me was the fact that their community resembles a rural area rather than a traditional prison. While heading to the activity area, I felt like I was just in some province walking from barrio to barrio. Of course, unlike any other province, only male population exists in the said place. They have a boxing arena, a huge green field and some space which seems to resemble a hardware/mechanic shop. They have goods for sale along the side, like a typical 'talipapa.' The inmates are free to roam around the said vicinity. I must admit, I felt uncomfortable when I lost sight of my companions. Well, it was definitely not because I was surrounded with convicted people; I usually feel that way whenever I am in an unfamiliar crowd. The inmates were very dear. They made sure that their visitors were comfortable. They arranged the chairs and even fanned some of us. It was a privilege to talk to them. Most of the people there were very articulate.

There were genuine smiles on their faces. The type that you won't even see from a free man who's stressed out from work. I wish I can say that those smiles signify that they are hopeful. Honestly, I don't think they are. The prison walls emit a strong feeling of hopelessness. It's really saddening to see how a wrong decision can impact one's entire life. Each of them has his own story to tell. Whether their acts are justifiable or not, some of these convicts did what they have to do for their family, for survival.

They say that others would rather stay inside the prison because nobody cares for them outside. Their families and friends already turned their backs on them. Furthermore, some think that if they stay inside, they won't have to worry about how to survive each day since food comes free. Added to this is the way some people treat ex-convicts. The stigma will always be there.

There are some who already have their release papers processed but are still confused about how they are going to face life outside. Will they choose to be better individuals? Or will they continue doing the same old 'deeds'? As I think about it, not too many employers are willing to employ ex-convicts. I wish I'm wrong. Others are also afraid that families of their victims might take revenge on them. Or some network of 'wrongdoers' might hunt them down.

I'm glad that despite all of these negativities, their faith in God is still intact. I really think that is admirable. I know that even free men find that hard to do. I believe that lack of faith, in one way or the other, makes us prisoners too. I just wish people outside can be more forgiving. Also, I hope that people who are faced with crime inviting situations can be more cautious of their decisions.

'... the world isn't split into good people and death eaters. We all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the power we chose to act on. That’s who we really are.' - Sirius to Harry

Collide

2007-06-23T11:54:00.000+08:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

by Howie Day

Still

2007-05-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Be still for He is in control :)

boto...

2007-05-11T18:07:00.000+08:00

snippet sa isang chat...

Person 1: natatawa ako nagsend ung comelec ba un
Person 1: ng lettter sa ate ko
Person 1: official list of candidates
Person 1: meron iba dun seaman
Person 1: kakandidato
Person 1: amp
Person 1: san na pupulutin pinas?
Person 1: sa dagat?
Person 2: hindi naman
Person 2: sa kangkungan
Person 2: kasama ni p*chay

Bakit pakiramdam ko mas marami pang manonood ng Spidey kesa sa mga boboto? Kailangan na ata natin ng superhero. Sabi daw sa commercial hindi matatapos yung mga tulay at projects ng government kung hindi boboto... cge na nga sa Lunes.

VOTE WISELY!

i heart my job

2007-05-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

Finally... the results are out... I passed the ITIL Foundations (The Information Technology Infrastructure Library is a customer-focused, process-oriented approach to IT Service Management) Certification exam. I guess this is just the cherry on the cake. I've been working for my company for six months now. Everyday has been an enjoyable learning experience. Who says that beauties can never be geeks? My co-employees are the antitheses to that. It's so great to work with a lot of friendly, genius (and gorgeous?) yuppies. People from the top management to the guards are really nice. You even get to add your big boss on Friendster. Aside from that, the company never fails to motivate its employees (with my brief stay here, I have already received two recognitions :P). This makes you aspire more, not only for your own growth but also for the company's. It is an organization that is committed to excellence, yet it never fails to impose to its employees the importance of giving back to the society and the benefits of having fun. Join us, (I guess I don't have to give a list of our cool benefits hehe) I'm not an HR resource, I'm just overjoyed :P .

Happy Labor Day everyone :)

B.A.T.A. Foundation

2007-04-21T12:52:00.000+08:00

all of them are sweet,
all of them have short hair,
all of them have genuine smiles,
all of them are faithful,
all of them are well-behaved,
all of them are good students,
all of them have talent,
all of them have high hopes,
all of them have bright dreams,
all of them love to be hugged,
all of them want to be remembered,
some love to sing,
some love to dance,
one wants to be an actress,
one wants to be a nurse,

...the girls of B.A.T.A Foundation...

these kids are pure sources of inspiration.

Inspire and be inspired :)

Bigay Awa at Tanglaw sa mga Anghel
B.A.T.A. FOUNDATION INC.
Our Lady of Guadalupe Girl's Home
86 Fortune Street, Barangay Fortune
Marikina City
Website: www.batafoundation.org
Contact Number: 941-6391

quick! quick! quick!

2007-04-17T18:38:00.000+08:00

Here's a quick post... I lost my show desktop icon hahah! I accidentally dragged it to a personal folder. Being the OC that I am, I deleted it. I tried to recreate a shortcut but nothing worked, I wasn't able to find my 'show desktop' icon anywhere (believe me I couldn't find it hahaha). Anyway, as always, Google was there to the rescue. I stumbled upon this very helpful tool, Restore Missing Show Desktop Icon. Just download it, run it and voila! The icon is restored ;)

Oh nooo they're gonna send Bruce to Slovenia (yup I'm an avid fan of Pinoy Big Brother haha). In case you don't know, Slovenia is located in Central Europe. The show is the first Slovene season of Big Brother. It started last March 17 and will end on June 9, 2007. Bruce will leave on April 19, and the female exchange housemate from Slovenia will arrive on April 21. Above are the headshots of Bruce's future Slovene housemates. Want to know more? Visit the Slovene Big Brother site (you'll need a Slovene translator for this :P).

Cab Talk

2007-02-20T18:55:00.000+08:00

I happened to ride a cab the other week and like what I usually do, I sat on the passenger's seat. After a few minutes the driver blurted, "why did you choose to sit there and not at the back? If I were a robber, you would have suffered a helpless fate." It made me think, "Well," I said, "I remember a friend's story about a robber who hid under the back seat and stole her mobile phone... that was really creepy. That is aside from the fact that I do not like giving the driver the feeling that he is my slave." The driver said that my friend's story is hard to believe and that it is more dangerous to sit in front. He added that I should ride yellow, green or red colored cabs (his taxi is a white corolla). He said that company cabs are more secure than those that are individually owned (white colored). Now I know why they are color-coded (pardon my ignorance)! He further said that R&E is an established taxi company and that a lot of call center agents in Makati ride their cabs. Well I guess this information is worth sharing especially to those who work on late night shifts :) Be vigilant... choose the right cab :P

Surprise! Surprise!

2007-02-15T10:14:00.000+08:00

R: Swatch ba yan watch mo?
Me: Oo, binili ng tita ko for me
R: Ganyan din kasi yung gusto ko
Me: Ah tlga cool nga 'to nafliflip eh

She always blushes (sa hiya, ngayon pa nahiya noon hindi :P) and laughs whenever I recount how our first conversation went. She is...

... someone who has the patience to wait for me while I put on my make up and do my morning chika in the ladies room...
... someone who is easily irritated by poor customer service...
... someone who has an open house for emergency sleep overs...
... someone who is willing to entertain my call even if I just have to cry my heart out...
... someone who can make me laugh effortlessly...
... someone who always prays for me...
... someone who would rather cry than retaliate when I'm mad and hurting...
... someone who makes me feel that I am special and blessed...
... someone who is willing to give me a Body Shop blush even if she bought it for herself hahaha...
... someone who amazes me with never before heard showbiz chikas...

She likes Jasmine Trias, appreciates Mariel Rodriguez and loves Lawrence Ramirez / Jeffrey Belvez... hahaha peace!

She is the darling of our batch.

Thanks for being there for us Raych. We missed you. We are glad you're back. May all your dreams come true on your special day. The Almighty will always be there to guide you, have faith and always do your best.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

On Love and Ada

2007-02-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Leia, I was able to watch Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Musikal. The play offers twice the fun that you can get from the movie. It was a laugh trip from beginning to end. In between those funny lines lie the heart of the musicale. It speaks about true love - Dodong loved Ada despite of all the complexities; and about taking chances - Ada stepped out of his comfort zone to welcome the greatest feeling on earth. The play's lessons are perfect for the coming season. They say that true love means showing your love even if it's hard to. Love is not just a feeling, it is a decision and a commitment. With every commitment comes the effort to make things work. You may get hurt at times, but you should not stop from believing in the magic of love. You should also learn to love yourself. It's hard to share love if you dont leave something for yourself. Okay, okay I'll stop before my friends throw their stuff at me hahaha.

*friends with Didi and Dodong

Here's my valentine message for everyone: If you are in love, cherish the feeling and make your special someone 'the one'; if you are waiting for love, never lose hope; if you are afraid of love, take a chance and be courageous.

Well... Valentine's is a free day for doing the craziest and corniest things ... Celebrate Love!

Happy Hearts' Day everyone ;)

Camping @ Anawangin Zambales

2007-02-06T10:54:00.000+08:00

Last month, I was lucky enough to join my ex-officemates / camping friends in an exciting adventure at Anawangin, Zambales. I have had camping classes back in college and I can say that climbing mountains is not a piece of cake. The trip that we had is perfect for first time campers. It was more of a beach escapade. The destination has a lot to offer.

It is a virgin island with 'blairwitch' pine trees (haha imagine that). The place is perfect for groups who want to chill out and enjoy nature's beauty; for individuals who want to do some soul searching; for couples who are of the romantic-adventurous type (take note: walang signal sa island :P). Imagine lying on the sand with great friends while staring at a blanket of stars. Never in my whole life have I ever seen such a beautiful night sky sprinkled with a huge amount of stars (blame it to Manila's pollution). The sand is really fine so even if you are not a flipper you will not hesitate to take a dip in the clear waters.

What made the escapade even more enojoyable is the fact that the cost was low. Since you have to bring your own food and tent, you just have to spend on transportation:

414 per person - bus (Caloocan - San Antonio and vice versa)
40 per person - tricycle (2 way each tricycle can accommodate 3 persons, San Antonio to Pundaquit Beach)
267 per person - boat (2 way each boat can accommodate 3 persons, Pundaquit Beach to Anawangin Cove)

The experience was really great. Thanks to Joy, our persistent organizer. Go ahead, take your well-deserved break and enjoy the sun in Anawangin :)

ABC's

2007-01-30T14:06:00.000+08:00

There are a lot of things that I want to blog about but I don't have much time ;) Here's a meantime post:

A - Accent: neutral accent hehehe, trivia: I attended an American accent training when I worked for a call center
B - Breakfast Item: I don't eat breakfast but I'll choose pancakes yummmm
C - Chore you hate: ironing clothes
D - Dad’s Name: Herminigildo a.k.a. Bindoy a.k.a. Ace Vergel hehehe
E - Essential everyday item: mobile phone
F - Flavor ice cream: ube
G - Gold or Silver? white gold
H - Hometown: Pasig City
I - Insomnia: pag in love or heartbroken? eiiiwwww hahah
J - Job Title: IT Specialist
K - Kids: have none but i love 'em... kids' thoughts are really interesting
L - Living arrangements: with my parents and im not planning on moving out anytime soon haha
M - Mom’s birthplace: Binangonan, Rizal
N - Number of significant others you’ve ever had: 4?
O - Overnight hospital stays: ... nah...
P - Phobias: fear of stampede lol... or just being in an anonymous crowd
Q - Queer: babaeng bakla
R - Religious Affiliation: Roman Catholic
S - Siblings: two girls and a boy
T - Time you wake up: 8...9.. 10?
U - Unnatural hair colors you’ve worn: light brown
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: ampalaya
W - Worst habit: being an OC at times
X - X-rays you’ve had: none this year
Y - Yummy: sinigang na sugpo / dodong of zsa zsa zaturnnah ze musikal hahaha
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio

resolutions...

2007-01-04T11:29:00.000+08:00

I'm not really a big fan of planners but those that were given out in the office were really nice. I guess I'll try using one ;) Maybe I'll start by jotting down my New Year's resolutions. Is this a list of resolutions or a wishlist? Hahaha... Anyway, let my planner and this blog be the keepers and we'll see what happens at the end of the year :)

... continue my violin lessons ...
... be an active member of HOM (sana)...
... stop being so 'pinky' (hindi ako mahilig sa pink lol)...
... work harder (saan kaya? hehe)...
... be a gym buff (wish ko lang)...
... heal (and eventually have fun :P)...
... learn how to drive...
... buy my own car (second hand lang)...
... start my own business (hmmm haha)...
... be happier :D...

Happy New Year!!!

2006-12-31T13:20:00.000+08:00

Cheers to renewed hope and new beginnings :)
Have a Joyous, Bountiful and Peaceful New Year everyone!
Let God shine His fireworks on you.

When I See You Smile

2006-12-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

So right...

This goes to everyone who has helped me become what I am now... Thank you for shining your light on me. You are God's little angels and you touch my life in magical ways. Keep on smiling ;)

goodbye

2006-12-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

i feel so down
i feel so stupid
i feel so betrayed
i feel so unloved
i feel so rejected
no time for regrets
no time for anger
my heart is so tired
so tired of begging
so tired of forgiving
so tired of accepting
so tired of crying
last sunday i was so sorry for the things ive done...
the homily really touched me and i prayed hard...
i entrusted everything to God
its hard to trust especially when you have been deceited a lot of times
i let go of all my worries and pain... and i forgave
i said that i'll learn how to trust even if im filled with doubt
i prayed that He guides me... and if anything goes wrong its gonna be up to Him
i guess my prayer was answered... maybe its His way of saying that something is not right
i know my faults... pride... i have none...
i know a lot of things contributed to what i am now and what this has turned out to be
no time for regrets
no time for anger
im going to move on... its not gonna be easy but i know that i have to be strong
too much pain
too much tears
too much rejection
too much lies
too much deceit
trust, honesty and openness go hand in hand
the world is not perfect but i can choose to be happy
i've been here before i was younger then and i survived
i haven't lost hope on better things
thank you... i am sorry... God bless us.

34 Days...

2006-11-21T08:44:00.000+08:00

Malls are soooo full of shoppers... twinkling bright lights adorn every establishment... cold breeze fills the air... no wonder the most Magical Season is on its way... Merry Merry Christmas :)

My Grown Up Christmas List

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

* No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath the tree
But heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a heartached human soul

*

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart (No more torn apart)
That wars would never start (never start)
And time would heal all hearts (ohh..hearts)
Everyone would have a friend (one would have a friend)
And right would always win (would always win)
And love would never end (never...never end, no)

This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown up Christmas list...

Happy Birthday Jen

2006-10-20T11:04:00.000+08:00

This is supposed to be a birthday entry for jen hahah. Sorry I was preoccupied with a lot of things. Nevertheless belated happy birthday Jen (September 24). Thanks for being the crazy person that you are. Only a few people are blessed with the kind of courage that you possess. Some may not understand where that strong personality is coming from, but I can say that you needed that in order to survive the trials that you encountered in life. I'm proud of you. Always stand tall for God will always be with you. As you continue your journey, now with the undying love of papa robert :), I wish both of you the happiness that you deserve. Thanks for all the precious advice and for the countless laugh trips that you've made us enjoy.

The transformation.... hahaha peace jen!!!

tadaaaaa.....

Breakaway

2006-08-15T14:41:00.000+08:00

I'll take a chance and breakaway... :) It's gonna be a great day.

Breakaway
by Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

* I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

*

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Tagged...

2006-08-10T11:27:00.000+08:00

FIRST NAME? Anne Kristine

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Jesus Christ

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? yup

WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH? Sinigang na sugpo (with gabi and okra hehehe)

IF YOU’RE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD U BE FRIENDS W/ YOU? Not sure, I think I'm intimidating at first because I'm a snob, but I'm really friendly hahaha

DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? does this blog count?

DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? nah

DO U STILL HAVE TONSILS? yes

DO U WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO U? yup

WHAT COLOR OF PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? black and black

FAVORITE DRINKs? green mango shake

HUGS OR KISSES? hugs... both

FAVORITE SPORT? camping

WHAT’S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? still trying to learn how to play the violin

YOUR EYE COLOR? dark brown

HAT SIZE? M

WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Trix

DO U THINK YOU’RE STRONG? emotionally speaking? I think I'm becoming weaker as I get older

WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Selecta Ube

SHOE SIZE? 7.5

RED OR PINK? pink

WHAT’S THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT URSELF? im a narcissist hahaha

WHO DO U MISS THE MOST? my Nanay

LAST THING YOU ATE? ham sandwich

WHAT SOUNDS YOU'RE HEARING RIGHT NOW? Gallery by Mario Vasquez

IF YOU'RE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD U BE? white

FAVORITE SMELL? Victoria's Secret Love Spell

DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? i hate her... just kidding hahaha i love her

FAVORITE FOOD? Sinigang na sugpo, mangga with bagoong

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Miami Vice

WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? White

SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter

FAVORITE DESSERT? blueberry cheesecake

WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Dan Brown's novels

WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? House

THE FURTHEST YOU’VE BEEN FROM HOME? Hong Kong

WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? October 24, 1982 / Manila Philippines

WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Jen

I tag Leia, Carme, Anche.

when its over...

2006-07-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

Got this article from a friend's mail...
____________________________

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you will know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person or people involved; and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships, and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
_____________________________

There are times when we force ourselves to think that the chance of meeting a certain person is for a lifetime. We tend to be selfless that we devote everything to that person only to get nothing in return. Time comes when we start to accept that the chance is only for a reason or season. It may take so much pain to realize that but I guess that has to happen in order for us to actually see the real thing.

On the other hand, there are people who don't give importance on that chance of a lifetime. They may see each moment lasting only for a reason or season. Even if you try so hard to convince them that it's for a lifetime. Like what the article says, its always good to know a person's purpose in your life because if you do, you'll be able to do the right thing.

SM Mall of Asia

2006-06-28T14:21:00.000+08:00

Last week I, along with some friends spent a rainy day trekking the country's hottest shopping destination. Why is everybody crazy about the SM Mall of Asia? Simply because the said mall is the largest in the Philippines and third largest in the world. Aside from the wide range of shops (although some aren't operating yet), it boasts of world-class facilities like an olympic size skating rink and the Imax theatre. Enough of this pseudo-ad here are some pics;)

olympic size ice skating rink

open air mall, boutiques are air-conditioned (the skating rink really contributes to a cooler ventilation) / cinemas

center stage / overpass that connects the mall to the 'Sunset Boulevard', a park where you can hang out and witness the sunset. It gives you a perfect synergy of urban(mall) and rural(bay) atmosphere

Mall of Asia / view from Sunset Boulevard

view from Sunset Boulevard / Music Hall

Restaurant lane's open area resembles that of Ortigas' Metrowalk / Mall of Asia

SM Mall of Asia

How to get there... well of course you can ride your wheels (parking spaces are also available near the 'Sunset Boulevard' area); by public transportation get off at MRT Taft station, there are jeepneys and buses that will bring you directly to the mall. A piece of advice if you want to enjoy the vastness the of the mall, wear comfortable clothes and shoes (for your own sake wear flip-flops hehehe).

Soul Patrol Rules American Idol

2006-05-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to Taylor Hicks, winner of American Idol Season 5. Here's the lyrics of Do I Make You Proud, the song that gave him the advantage over Katharine McPhee in what was said to be a 'tied' competition.

Do I Make You Proud
Taylor Hicks
American Idol Season 5

I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
and now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall

My heart is full
of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved

In parallel to Taylor's debut single, here's the lyrics of Katharine's My Destiny...

My Destiny
Katharine McPhee
American Idol Season 5

I have always dreamed of this
I'll admit that there was something I missed
I'm wondering if it is for real
Every mistake
Every wrong turn
Every time I lost my way
Lead me to this
Moment of bliss tonight

With you
Finally I can break free
With you
It's all changing in my destiny
Dream come true
It's all funny now that I see
How different life turned out to be

You were always by my side
That you believed in me
Was enough reason why
I didn't stop
Didn't give up
Even if I sometimes lost hope
I did my best
And I am blessed in life

Can I get any higher
Tell me
Does it get any stronger
I owe it to you
that I made it through
I never could have done it
Without you

I couldn't agree more with the judges when they said that Kat's song wasn't that good. I mean, Katharine is great but while she was performing I thought that it would have been better if Elliott was the one who's singing that song. Not that I'm being bitter or anything (okay okay I am bitter hahaha), but I just thought that the song's message perfectly fits Elliott's story. Aside from that, the key was too low for Kat's voice. Well anyway, I know Elliott will still make it big, the same goes for all the other idols like Chris, Kellie and of course, Kat :).

*photo from www.americanidol.com

Simple Pleasures

2006-05-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged by Jen. Read on for a list of simple pleasures that bring me inexplicable joy...

Instructions: Name ten (10) of life’s simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten (10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. waking up every morning and seeing my family members safely tucked under their comforters
2. thinking about spending forever with someone you truly love
3. accidentally hearing other people say good things about me
4. laughing my heart out with friends
5. shopping
6. seeing cuuuuute babies ( i love babies with rosy cheeks ;) )
7. hearing Christmas songs (even if it isn't Christmas yet hehehe)
8. seeing Eliott Yamin perform
9. hearing myself play a tune with my violin
10. the relief brought by mefenamic acid whenever i'm having dysmenorrhea

There are actually a lot of things in life that we should be thankful for. You just need to have a contented heart in order to see them. I tag 'mis amigos' ;)

Happy Mother's Day

2006-05-15T15:22:00.000+08:00

Thank God for our Moms. Here are five reasons why we can't live without them...

5. They are magicians, think about how they stretch the household budget.
4. They are soooo patient. Imagine carrying you in the womb for nine months and molding you to become a good individual for years (even if you resist to be one hahaha)!
3. They may sound unreasonable at times (well, most of the time, kidding! hahaha) but at the end of the day we realize that they just want the best for us.
2. They love us unconditionally. Even if we try to turn them down a million times, we know that they will always be there for us.
1. They are precious blessings from God and we are here because of them :)

Here's a beautiful song that I've always dedicated to someone who has always been a good friend, sister, teacher, financier (hahaha), movitator... the list may go on but simply put, she's the wind beneath my wings... my Mom. Thanks Mommy.

Wind Beneath My Wings
Bette Midler

It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way,
you always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name -- for so long,
a beautiful smile to hide the pain.

*Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and ev'rything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it,
I would be nothing with out you.

*

Fly, fly, fly away,
you let me fly so high.
Oh, fly, fly,
so high against the sky, so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you, thank God for you,
the wind beneath my wings.

Summer Sunshine

2006-05-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

I really had a great summer this year. Having lots of adventures with family, friends and colleagues is a great way of beating the heat. Here are my escapade destinations: Binangonan, Antipolo (Villa Cristina), Pangasinan (Our Lady Of Manaoag), Baguio, Tagaytay (sight-seeing, Banio Creek Farms), Taytay (Club Manila East).

Oh well, I just wanna make this entry before sunny days bid goodbye (it rained this morning hahaha).

Everyone's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

* In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no returning
I keep comparing, you're always winning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go...

*

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

**

My American Idol

2006-04-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

We already said goodbye to Kellie Pickler. She was my favorite in the competition. Despite being an orphan, she managed to nurture that bubbly personality which, even the judges agree, is very contagious. But then again American Idol is a singing competition, she has her share of flaws in her last two performances. Nevertheless, I really hope we can see her more on the boob tube not only as a singer, but also as an actress like idol Lisa Tucker who is guesting on The OC.

Well, the show must go on. Katharine and Chris are the highest pointers in the last performance night. Kat is charming but I believe Chris is more talented. I think Chris will win the competition though I really wish Eliott brings home the bacon. These two guys are actually my new favorites. Chris rocks and at the same time he's a good family man. These qualities kinda balance his image. Eliott is 'a good soul'. His latest performance even moved Paula to tears. He really is an American Idol :) Please vote for Eliott ;)

*photos from www.americanidol.com

Reflections : Holy Week

2006-04-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

Then Jesus, crying with a loud voice, said, "Father, into thy hands I commit my spirit!" And having said this He breathed his last.
Luke 23:46

This is Christ's seventh word, it recounts how He willingly entrusted his life to the Father. It reminds me of another passage that Raych shared to me,

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

Whenever you feel that all hopes are gone, remember that there is an almighty and loving Father who has always been there for you. It can even come to a point when you may think that every little thing becomes a major catastrophe. Think again, things happen for a reason; reasons that our mortal minds sometimes fail to understand. Its hard, I know, but in His time everything will become clear and things will emerge greater than any plans we've made for ourselves. Just keep the faith and commit your spirit :)

Google Talk Avatars and Themes

2006-04-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

You can now personalize your Gtalk by choosing your very own avatar and theme. Well this might not sound new to you since these features are already offered by other IM services, but in a workplace where Gtalk is the only IM service allowed, I'd say its a cool improvement ;) Another thing, you can now get Gtalk for Blackberry devices. Check out these new features. Or, get your own Gtalk.

Nips!

2006-04-05T15:20:00.000+08:00

wanna see what happens in a pack of nips
what goes on before they touch my lips
they make a rainbow (chocolate nips)
a choco rainbow (chocolate nips)
and then they cover all the flowers
and they paint the trees
sweet and delicious look at all those treats
so what goes on before they touch my lips?
they make a rainbow
nips! nips!

hahah... just bringing out the child in me ;)

Confessions : Coming Out

2006-04-03T14:41:00.000+08:00

A very courageous article written by a good friend...

Its like being in limbo. Not knowing where to go or how to get there. You think of yourself, your happiness, your thoughts and your feelings. Then come the people around you, their thoughts, their feelings, their actions.

This is my predicament.

I am in this stage of life wherein a teener, or in my case, a young adult experiences confusion, uncertainty and undecisiveness in knowing what or who I will be, certain things come into my mind that somewhow always pull me back into this abyss of confusion.

Coming out, as they say, is this process. Coming out of the closet with all my emotion, my thoughts and aspirations. Coming out to a world that somehow is still doubtfull of the fact that we do exist. But is it really that easy?

A couple of very close friends have repeatedly told me to just let it all loose, let everybody know the real me. Me whom my closest friends have seen and learned to accept. As my bestfriend placed it, "tingnan mo 'ko, walang problema. Magladlad ka na kasi!"

As easy as it might have been for him, i couldn't quite elaborate all the thoughts and worries that i feel whenever they tell me to just come out.

I was born to a religious family. A family that goes to church two times a week, attends Bible studies almost every night and actively participates in all church activities. A religious family that believes in the existence of only Adam and Eve, no more, no less, nobody in between.

I was brought up believing that feeling other than what the Bible tells you is a sin. That it will be punished in the flames of hell. That doing something else than what the Holy Scriptures demand will mean eternal damnation.

I grew up in the company of relatives that are strict, conforming and conservative. They expect everybody in the family to be normal. Normal according to what the society and the people before them have dictated. Normal in the sense that they can fathom what you think and what you feel, which is contrary to the real me.

Coming out to them would mean destroying the most important part of my life. It means putting into waste all the effort and perseverance I have put into earning their trust and respect.

This is my reality.

Coming out would mean my family's disgrace, its failure.

I can very well envision, not only my father, but all of the elders in my family disowning me for being me; raising arguments and discussions reaching the edges of the Holy Scriptures and imposing on me judgment as they knew it would be.

I can see my relatives looking at me as if peeling off my skin, trying to get to the bottom of my soul. To pull out and remove that unworthy part of me they deem sinful.

This is me coming out. As horrid as it may seem, this is what I see when I come out. The thought of losing my family alone takes the conviction and courage out of me to declare that this is me out of my shell.

------

Maybe i'll be like this until i grow old. A fool who can never stand up for what he really feels, what he really is. But as long as my family stays well and respected, everything will have to come in as second priority.

--- Anonymous

As Rustom Padilla (an actor who recently admitted that he is gay) put it, "I'd call it sexual orientation, not sexual preference because this is not a choice." No, I'm not gay, but I believe that gays (and lesbians) are women trapped in a man's body (and vice versa). I think that the essence of their sexuality is unfairly tainted. Last week I've seen IC Mendoza (an actor who is open about his sexuality) talking to his father in a show. He was really worried because his father might not accept him for who he is, but during the course of the talk, it seemed that his father somehow tried to understand his point. I thought that IC would be relieved, but the nerve-wracking emotion on his face never went out. Maybe he was still scared, still worried. Again I quote Rustom, "I'm not just a gay person, I'm a person who happens to be gay." Well I have two wishes: I wish that those who haven't come out yet may have the courage to liberate themselves; more importantly, I wish that people around them may let them do that; let them live freely in this free world.

lately...

2006-03-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

I'm not posting this because Melissa McGhee forgot Mr. Wonder's lyrics in American Idol (she actually paid the price by saying goodbye in last week's elimination). I just love the song ;)

Lately
by Stevie Wonder

Lately I have had this strangest feeling,
with no vivid reason here to find.
Yet the thought of losing you has been hanging, round my mind...
Far more frequently you're wearing perfume,
with you sayin', "No special place to go"
But when I ask when you'll be coming back soon,
you don't know, never know.

* Well, I'm a man of many wishes,
I hope my premonition misses,
but what I really feel, my eyes won't let me hide,
cause they always start to cry.
cause this time could mean goodbye.

Lately I've been staring in the mirror,
very slowly picking me apart.
Tryin' to tell myself I have no reason, with your heart.
Just the other night while you were sleeping,
I vaguely heard you whisper someone's name.
But when I asked you of the thoughts you're keeping,
you just say, nothing's changed.

**

Nail in the Fence

2006-03-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

A friend e-mailed me this very inspiring story. Read on...

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there."

A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.

YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!
Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.

There are times when we get so mad that we tend to utter nasty things even if we don't mean them. As recounted in the article, 'a verbal wound is as bad as a physical one,' let me just add, sometimes it's even worse. Of course we know that we can apologize for the things said and admit that they are just spur of the moment stuff; but like what the story implies, a repugnant scar remains. Most of the time it's not just a 'wording' issue. It boils down to respect, I believe lack of it is what leaves those holes. Next time you get so mad, that you tend to verbalize your anger in an ill-mannered way, try to keep your silence... then think... do you mean what you're about to say? Is it really what you wanna say and the way you want to say it? Is it worth the pain that you might cause? I hope the article can help you avoid leaving those holes :) And if you're someone who has been left with holes, remember that you are very special and you shouldn't let anybody bring you down with those offensive words.

Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole :)

Photo Mosaic

2006-03-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

That's my very own photo mosaic ;) After trying out several mosaic makers, I finally settled with Mosaic Creator. It's shareware and you can download it from the Mosaic Creator's homepage. What's good about this tool is that you can manipulate the clarity of the main picture vs. the tiled pictures, a feature not usually offered by other tools of this type. It also has a wide range of tile patterns that you can choose from. You can try it out by downloading the trial version which is good for 30 days. If you want a freeware for making mosaics, you can try using Andrea Mosaic, though of course the first one has more features to offer. 1,350 pictures are better in 1 ;)

Markku, thanks for those beautiful pics ;)

Can You Tickle Yourself?

2006-03-07T16:15:00.000+08:00

Have you ever tried to tickle yourself? Sounds weird huh, but seriously, did it ever work? Here's an interesting article from the Discovery Channel News, "Study Shows Why We Can't Tickle Ourselves." Read on and find out why you can't (or even can) tickle your self ;)

the other side of tickling...
People don't just tickle to elicit laughter, some use the act as a form of torture. The type of criminal punishment was first used by the Roman Empire calling the method "Goat's tongue." The method was also said to be used in Ancient China. "Chinese tickle torture" as they call it, refers to the act of tying a victim and excessively tickling him therefore making him subject to extreme pain.

Guess who's having a BIRTHDAY...

2006-03-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

It was the 5th of March 1979 when a cute chubby li'l baby was born... still don't get it?

he's good looking (o ayan ha :P)
he's sweet
he's loving
he's thoughtful
he's dignified
he's intelligent
he's a good writer
he's a good photographer
he's a good guitarist
he's family-loving
he's God-fearing

Have a Happy Happy Birthday Markku. May your day be filled with joyful memories. You have what it takes to make all your dreams come true, so seize each coming day. I know God will help you do your best :) I love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Ugly

2006-02-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

There comes a point in our lives when no matter how confident we are of our well-being we suddenly find ourselves feeling worthless, unimportant or simply... ugly. And no matter how hard we try to pick ourselves up there are people who seem to pull us down for them to feel better about themselves. Well, let this song remind you that you're very special and that you don't have to be bothered.. because people are all the same :)

Ugly
by Sugababes

When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
They had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous 'cause

*People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
My personality reflects me
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

**

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realizes how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

**

spread your wings dear butterfly

2006-02-21T11:36:00.000+08:00

What Could Have Happened to the Little Prince? -- a great story written by a friend. It's actually his own sequel to the Little Prince's story.

There are times when we are given the opportunity to relish wonderful moments, whether these be trying or joyful times, with other people. We sometimes wish that we can freeze that very exact moment and keep it in the depths of our marrows just to keep us alive. But life doesn't work that way... we are only given seasons, fleeting moments that we have to enjoy as they come our way, for a day may come when a certain season will end... and memories are only what we are left with. But never fear the vicissitude, for spring is coming with a lovelier sunshine.

Happy Valentines Day

2006-02-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

Here are 100 ways of saying i love you...

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Elf (from The Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien)- "le melin" (thanks Markus)
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe (Thanks Craig)
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

... ang macornyhan bitter lol

The Price of Prizes

2006-02-07T14:01:00.000+08:00

It was late night last friday when we passed along ULTRA in Ortigas. We were quite curious of the reason behind the flocking of a huge crowd. I thought it was one of those Pacquiao celebrations, or perhaps EDSA 4 since most of the people were of class C. I was shocked when I found out the next day that there was a stampede - the ULTRA Stampede.

The fact wouldn't sink in. I tried to recall the hopeful faces of those people the other night, they looked ecstatic for the coming event. Wowowee's (a noontime game/variety show) first year anniversary celebration was supposed to be a jolly event, but it turned out to be a creepy drama. At least 70 people died and hundreds were injured.

I've seen an interview where a sociologist explained that if not for the people's selfishness, none of it could have happened. She said that not only poor people were present in the said gathering, well-to-do individuals were also there. Imagine those people stepping or running over the corpses around them, not to escape from the tragic scene, but to continue haggling for tickets! Isn't that crazy?! Reminds me of zombies in Resident Evil :( . These people were desperate, they lined up for days, hungry and tired, persisting just to get that 'chance' to bring home the bacon.

I was teary-eyed when I saw a tribute video clip, I can't help but pity those kids and elderly victims. I remember my grandma when she took her last breath upon seeing some footages of people fighting for their lives in the hospitals. I watched a guy cry his apologies out saying that he shouldn't have gone there and wrangled for the chance to win if it was his mother's life, which is priceless, that he had to lose in return. I was deeply touched when I saw a macho guy cry for his four year old who passed away.

I don't think there's sense in pointing fingers at anyone. Technically speaking, it's the policemen's job to investigate who's at fault. Looking at it in a macro perspective, like what my fiddle teacher and a couple of friends said, it's clear to see that the system is a crap. I believe all of us have our share of fault, and each of us has his own role to play. Quoting my comment:

" ... Think about it, an uneducated worker tries to feed his family of five with 200 bucks a day which is only a portion of a socialite’s lunch spending. Its a fact - the system sucks, but we cannot just stand there and let the system eat us alive. We have to start with something. As the passage goes, “for unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.” Luke 12:48. But this doesn’t mean that the rich should feed the poor all their lives ... “give a man a fish and you feed him for a day, teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.” Those who are being helped should also play their part by helping themselves ... bayanihan is the perfect term for it. It’s not a perfect world, I know, but with love, respect and faith it can be better... "

Like Pacquiao's triumph, let's take Wowowee's loss an opportunity for us to unite. I was glad to know that Eat Bulaga, the contending program, extended its sympathy instead of taking the issue against Wowowee. Maybe most of us are so jaded by these happennings but our past failures should never stop us from dreaming of a better world. Each of us can help by doing our part, and by keeping the faith. Let's continue praying for the souls of those who passed away and for the hearts of those they left behind.

Because we miss you...

2006-01-30T17:42:00.000+08:00

Raych here are three reasons why you should come back here hehehe ...

KFC SM Mega Mall Building A
They still have KFC in building B but the one in building A is much bigger. It even has a playplace (and Jen badly wants to enter it, though she is not allowed to), a dessert counter and a function room.

Envy our gravyyyy hahaha...

McDonalds El Pueblo
No, we were not in McDo St. Francis, and yes! McDo El Pueblo just opened. I think their terrace is cool, we should hang out there sometime.

Here are our pics with some mascots.

Yellow Cab SM Mega Mall Building A
It's beside KFC. It's probably three times the size of Yellow Cab at St. Francis.

Care for some hot wings?

We'd love to visit these new restaurants with you Raych! Baby come back.. hahahaha

Green! Green! Green!

2006-01-26T09:42:00.000+08:00

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

What's your color?

Sana Naman

2006-01-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

by Session Road

eto nag-aaway na naman tayo
namomroblema, nagpapahiya
minsan pinalalampas ko na lng
kahit nasasaktan
paano na lang

ayoko na ng kunwarian,nakakailang
nakakapagod pag-usapan
'la ring pupuntahan

sana naman
maibalik ang nakaraan
at nang matutunan
na 'wag kang iwanan
sana naman
maibalik ang nakaraan
ng 'di sya masayang
sana ako'y, pakinggan

eto binabalewala mo lang ako
nagmamakaawa, ako'y nagpapaunawa
pero kahit na ang labo mo
aking papatunayan
na tanging ikaw lang

sana...sana..sana...sana naman...sana......

Sun Certified Programmer daw oh :)

2006-01-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

It was November last year when I took the Sun Certified Programmer for the Java 2 Platform, Standard Edition 1.4 (CX-310-035) exam. The test, according to the Sun site, 'is for programmers experienced in using the basic syntax and structure of the Java programming language.' My original plan was to take it this year but the company's training department announced that they have spare Sun vouchers that will expire in barely two weeks. Since I thought that I'm better in cramming (hehehe pasaway) than in long-time reviewing, I, along with other officemates took the risk.

The exam consists of 62 questions and the passing score is 52% (that's 32 out of 61). The review guideline says that you should have 6-12 months java programming experience. Personally speaking, I think that reading reviewers and taking mock exams can do you more good than having actual experience but not reading at all (well of course experience + review is a win-win situation :)). Not that actual coding experience won't help you, it's just that most of the questions are based on the standard features of the language, and some of these features are not commonly used by programmers. One thing to remember when reading review materials: don't let the idea that 'the exam is very very tricky' get deep into you. Thinking about that while taking the exam will cause more confusion. And don't let your nerves overcome you. And one more thing! choose a good testing center :-P

We were advised to read the following books:

1. Sun Certified Programmer & Developer for Java 2 Study Guide (Exam 310-035 & 310-027) by Kathy Sierra, Bert Bates

2. Addison Wesley-Programmer's Guide to Java Certification, A Comprehensive Primer, Second Edition-fly

I would recommend Bates since it discusses the topics in a very interesting way. Both books have sample questions at the end of every chapter, answers are also provided.

The following are some mock exams that you can find on the net:
Java Ranch Rule Roundup Game - good to start with since it's easier compared to other mock exams
Marcus Green Mock Exams - questions are comparable to the actual exam

With the advent of Java 5, Sun also released this new certification exam:
Sun Certified Programmer for the Java 2 Platform, Standard Edition 5.0 (CX-310-055)
and this update exam for those who have already taken the Java 2 Platform exam:
Sun Certified Programmer for the Java 2 Platform, Standard Edition 5.0 Upgrade Exam (CX-310-056)

Love, Peace, Respect, Joy, Hope and Faith

2006-01-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

10 pm - we were on our way home when the cab driver suddenly pulled over in the middle of the road and rolled the window down to witness something.

I was shocked to see almost half of a man's body situated under a revo, his bicycle lying beside him. Whenever I witness this type of accident I always take pity on the person who is run into. Not this time. The cab driver recounts that he saw the man drive his way towards the revo, he seemed drunk. He said that he also saw the revo slow down when the latter's driver eyed the man on his bike. What really struck me was the reaction of the man who's driving the revo. When the thing happened, he immediately got off the car, approached the injured, and in a panicky voice said, " Ano po nangyyayari sa inyo?!!!" Considering the situation and the fact that he looks way older than the injured, I was expecting him to say "@#%& anong problema mo?!", or "#$%^# nagpapakamatay ka ba?" Instead of anger, I saw pity and worry on the man's eyes. He was trembling to carry he guy as he asked for help.

This made me ponder. When everything seems annoying and irritating, it will never be fair to think that the world is so cruel. I know that there are many who are like that 'cool guy' but his sole existence will make you think that there is always a reason to do our part in making our world a better place (sounds cliche huh?).

I recall another story worth recounting. I was a working student back then; I worked for Pizza Hut. I was assigned at the dining area that day and was quite busy. I served several tables and was shocked when I saw that one of the tables was already vacated. There were many incidents when customers take advantage of peak periods and 'run away' immediately after eating without paying their bill. I was about to cry thinking about the big bill left by the customers. My hope that they will come back almost faded away as an hour passed. Still I prayed. I don't know if it's a miracle... they came back! They didn't actually 'run away' they just forgot to pay the bill because they were chatting on their way out. I was teary-eyed when I talked to the customers. I almost gave one of them a hug. I said "thank you talaga ma'am as in sobra ang bait nyo po." Then she replied, "it's okay, mabait ka din kasi." My manager gave me a sincere smile.

So there you go, these stories are sparks of hope for those who feel like the whole world turned them down. You might grow weary and tired of doing what's right when you think that everyone around you are so focused on their wrongdoings. Try to see the good side of every man or every situation. Surely even the most cruel criminal has a soft spot :). Just always do what's right and everything will fall in its place.

Cheers to a New Year full of Love, Peace, Respect, Joy, Hope and Faith.

Galatians 6:9
Let us not be weary in doing good, for we will reap in due season, if we don't give up.

Have A Joyous New Year

2005-12-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

Be inspired... and inspire others.

Make a wish.

Merry Christmas!!! Have a Blessed and Joyous New Year everyone :)

Wishlist ...

2005-12-22T13:28:00.000+08:00

Here's my Christmas wishlist.. heheheh

1. Sony Ericsson k750i
2. IPod Video
3. Guess watch
4. Wi-fi card for my palm zire 72
5. Metal case for my palm
6. Victoria's Secret (Love Spell) cologne
7. Pink Panther black with pink prints umbrella from Watson's
8. Hair curler
9. sincerest and warmest greetings from my friends especially those who I haven't get in touch with for a long time :)
10. World peace.. hahahhaha, no seriously .. WORLD PEACE!!!

Not Your Ordinary Kikay Film

2005-12-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

Ang Pagdadalaga Ni Maximo Oliveros. I've heard about this movie in Pinoy Big Brother. That was when Big Brother showed the film to the remaining housemates saying that the cd was a 'good deed' from Sam. After seeing some of the movie's scenes in PBB, I thought that it was quite an interesting film. I was surprised to know that it is being shown in local cinemas. I watched the film without having second thoughts about it. I have many bisexual, gay friends and I really find their viewpoints interesting. Aside from that, I can also say that I'm curious about experimental films.

I was overwhelmed to realize that I got more than what I expected. The story did not solely focus on homosexuality issues. It tackled important issues like poverty, family values and unconditional love. Aside from the great theme, the film was also graced with superb actors. They were sooo good that the drama will make you feel that you actually belong to their world.

Nathan Lopez, the lead actor is not very 'Maxi' in real life (seeing him portray Maximo will make you think otherwise, at ang taray! herbench ang tops nya hahah). Yes, he is straight and he goes to a Christian school in Quezon City. He has had several acting stints in ABS-CBN. Ping Medina, son of Pen Medina, also imparted his incomparable acting prowess in the movie.

Here are the film's awards and nominations:

Golden Zenith Award for Best Picture
Montreal World Film Festival 2005
First Films Competition

Jury Prize for
Best Picture and Best Actor, Best Production Design
Cinemalaya Philippines
Independent Film Festival 2005

Nominated for
Best Picture, Best Director and Best Actor
Asian Festival of First Films 2005
Singapore

Official SelectionSan Francisco International
Film Festival 2006

Finalist
World Cinema Competition
Sundance Film Festival 2006

Visit the movie's site or Maxi's blog.

Wear That Red Ribbon

2005-12-01T15:01:00.000+08:00

December 1, 2005 - it's World AIDS Day. Whenever I hear of AIDS, I remember Tom Hanks playing Andy Beckett in the movie Philadelphia. The said movie really brought me to tears (it actually won numerous awards ;)). Enough of the movie stuff, here are some key points that I got from a concerned organization, World AIDS Day :

Five people die of AIDS every minute. HIV stands for Human Immunodeficiency Virus. This is the virus known to cause AIDS (Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome).

You can get HIV in four ways:

1. unprotected sexual intercourse with an infected partner (the most common);

2. sharing needles or other contaminated injection or skin-piercing equipment;

3. blood and blood products through, for example, infected transfusions and organ or tissue transplants;

4. transmission from infected mother to child in the womb or at birth and breastfeeding.

I do believe that awareness is a crucial factor in battling this unrelenting disease. If the good men of science still haven't found the cure for AIDS then it becomes the greater responsibility of those who have the resources to supply the public with accurate and valuable information.

Let's spread the word.. not the disease.

want to know more?
UNAIDS
World AIDS Day

The Angel Has Flown

2005-11-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

‘Cause this angel has flown away from me
Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine
For all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought I had the strength to set her free
Did what I did because I love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me

- from Heaven Knows, by Orange and Lemons

You served your purpose well... now it's time to let you fly, because heaven is in need of another untainted angel. We know that you're in a much better place now with our Savior.

We'll miss you Nanay. Mahal na mahal ka namin.

Ho... Ho... Ho...

2005-11-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

Christmas is in the air... Christmas songs are being played everywhere... Here's my favorite :)

The Christmas Song

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire,
Jack Frost nipping on your nose,
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir,
And folks dressed up like Eskimos.

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe,
Help to make the season bright.
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow,
Will find it hard to sleep tonight.

They know that Santa's on his way;
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.
And every mother's child is going to spy,
To see if reindeer really know how to fly.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase,
To kids from one to ninety-two,
Although its been said many times, many ways,
Merry Christmas to you

Merry Christmas everyone!!! :D

My Sacrifice

2005-10-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

I don't usually write entries about my personal life but I guess now is a perfect timing to do so. Last Monday I turned 23. I can say that in the past years, life has been so good to me. Good doesn't necessarily mean that I got all I wanted when I wanted them. Like everyone else, it has been a roller coaster ride. It had its ups and downs. I know that there were times when my faith was tested. But still I did my best to lay my sorrows on Him. Im so happy and grateful for everything that I am and for everything that I have right now. I thank God for giving me another year to appreciate the matchless beauty brought by His power. In order to show my gratitude I'll face the world with renewed hope. Raych once told me, 'don't lose hope, think about those cancer patients who never gave up their fight.'

It maybe a coincidence, but right now I can say that my Nanay's condition serves as my inspiration to continue my fight. Nanay Emma, my grandma, is a very religious lady who has this very contagious quality of being jolly. One time our grandfather teased her "you're like a saint, everybody rushes to you and shout your name out everytime you arrive." She's a very hands-on grandma. She had her part well played in raising ALL of her grandchildren. A week ago I was asked to accompany her for her biopsy. I was somehow nervous but right after we prayed the rosary I saw courage on her face, l was relieved. "Hindi tayo pababayaan ng Diyos," she said. A few days ago the result was released. It wasn't exactly what we hoped for -- advanced stage of cancer.

Though her physical and medical condition are visibly worse, you'll never see a trace of shaken faith on her. This really inspires me and it brought me to a realization. I'll fix my eyes on Him, surrender all to Him. I'll be strong amidst all the trials. No matter how painful things can be in this life, I'll accept His will with open arms. I'll even give up on things that bring selfish happiness for me especially for those efforts that go in vain. I wish I can trade all the triumphs for my grandma's betterment... and for the happiness of all the people whom she inspires. But I know that everything happens for a reason, and that there is no greater planner than the One above. As for me, I'll continue my journey and see the lighter things out of everything. My friends asked me if I had a 'happy birthday,' I said "yes, maybe not the type of happiness that you are expecting, but being given another year to spend with your family and friends is a reason enough to be happy." I thank my family, my friends and most of all Him for everything.

i'm all yours.

I've been tagged...

2005-10-17T11:24:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged by Markku. I have to post 20 random facts about me then tag the same amount of people as minutes it took me to write the facts.

1. I'm faithful (though I don't consider myself religous)... I believe that God is omnipotent, benevolent, and above all He is a very good friend.

2. I'm gay = babaeng bakla. I love hangin' around with gays and I enjoy speaking gay lingo.

3. I've worked for Jollibee megamall, Jollibee edsa, Kenny Rogers, Pizza Hut while I was a student; I had my ojt at Pasig Public Library and ABS-CBN; I've worked for a call center and then Rockwell after I graduated. I’m currently working for *** heheh... hindi ako workaholic eh, sa totoo lang ayokong magtrabaho... haaay i miss all the friends i've met along the way.

4. I took up ice hockey lessons (ice hockey not figure skating okay?)

5. I believe in diplomacy. Violence and angst will bring humankind nowhere. This applies to the littlest things.. like cursing.. I really don’t think it does any good even if it’s just a spur of the moment thingy.

6. The thought of Christmas makes me cry (I dont know why).

7. I used to join lots of singing and drawing contests when I was young.

8. I hate people who aren't responsible/brave enough to express their true feelings and viewpoints when talking to the ones concerned yet unstoppably say crazy things when the latter turn their backs.

9. I have sensitive skin.. (I'm supposed to be allergic to detergents, softdrinks, food color, oily food hahah) so I can't live without a lotion..unscented that is, because even scented lotion causes irritation.

10. I like to relearn the Spanish language and my ultimate dream is to go to Spain.

11. Most people see me as a 'suplada' well in fact i'm ‘makulit’... (shy lang ako maggreet most of the time).

12. I'm a consistent scholar from gradeschool 'til college (hahah yabang) and I find it more flattering when people appreciate me because of that than because of things that meet the eye.

13. I've been a lector (for Catholic mass) and I want to continue being one but my schedule doesn't permit me.

14. I looooove babies.

15. I know that sharing my opinion doesn't hurt but I must say that I'm not comfortable giving advice to other people. I find it hard to impose things on someone especially when I know that the only person who knows the real score is he, himself. Besides, a person who has a problem only hears things he wants to hear. The best advice I can give is 'do whatever makes you happy.'

16. I want to learn how to play the violin.

17. I value my friends so much (even those that I seldom see nowadays) .. to the point that I think I become too gullible. I just love having fun with them.. like singing to the max even if we go out of tune.. or simply laughing our hearts out over the cheapest food.

18. I'm kikay but not maarte.

19. I love my family so much. It may not be that 'breakfast cereal commercial' type but I'm proud of everything we've been through.

20. I believe in unconditional love and I haven't lost hope on true love.

That's it! :) I'll tag ... Eric, Gerard, Nolan, Shibs, Vic.

Sam, Sam, Sam

2005-10-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

this is for you raych, whether you like it or not hahah

All of kuya's girls were dumbfounded when he entered the house. Does he look familiar? He's the cutie in close-up's latest ad. He's also the lead guy in Barbie's 'Just A Smile' music video. Sam Lloyd Milby, born on May 23, 1984, is from Ohio (his mom is originally from Surigao). He was invited to join the cast of Pinoy Big Brother when Jenny exited because of her father's critical medical condition.

He is unattached, actually he just had a break up with his girl (who resides in the US) upon finding out that the latter fell for somebody else while he was away. When asked who among the PBB girls was attractive, he said that he finds Say cute though meddling with other's relationship is not his cup of tea. You should hear him speak French ;) He's a good figure skater. He plays the guitar well and he has a voice to match... shall I continue?

The list may go on but I guess what makes this guy a 'kilabot' is that he's so humble despite his remarkable talents and cool qualities. As his cousin would put it, "Sam is a beautiful person. He's beautiful inside and out."

Some of Sam's skating tricks

hardy har har

2005-10-03T17:51:00.000+08:00

got this mail from a friend... :D

Fire authorities in California found a corpse in a burned out section of forest while assessing the damage done by a forest fire. The deceased male was dressed in a full wet suit, complete with scuba tanks on hisback, flippers, and face mask in the middle of the forest. Apost-mortem test revealed that the man died not from burns, but from massive internal injuries. Dental records provided a positive identification. Investigators then set about to determine how a fully clad diver ended up inthe middle of a forest fire. It was revealed that on the day of the fire, the man went diving off the coast, some 20 miles from the forest. The firefighters, seeking to control the fire as quickly as possible, had called in a fleet of helicopters with very large dip buckets. Water was dipped from the ocean and emptied at the site of the forest fire. You guessed it. One minute our diver was making like Flipper in the Pacific, the next, he was doing the breast stroke in a fire dip bucket 300 feet in the air and then air borne into smoke heaven. Some days it just doesn't pay to get out of bed.

Still think you're having a bad day?

Hangin' On

2005-09-05T15:28:00.000+08:00

here's Camille Velasco's debut single...

Set me free yeah yeah yeah...

Well everyday is just the same
the same games we play from day to day
will we find another way
'cause nothing's changed No love remains
because i try to see
but all your lies confine all we used to be
and now there's nothing left
i know i tried my best
when here the only thing to do is just

*** set me free why dont you, babe
get out my life why dont you, babe
cause you dont really love me
you just keep me hangin on

yeah everyday i wanna run away
cause i cant hide the pain that slowly flows through my veins
too many times we've apologized
cause its too hard to try to make it right
and all i do
is hold on to
memories of you and me
there never was reality so
now that theres nothing left
why should i try my best
when the only thing to do is just

***

dont try
try to pretend that its alright
when you know it isn't
well then let go
get out my life
cause you keep me hangin on

dont say
or try to tell me that its okay
im looking straight ahead for better days
where you cant keep me hangin on

***

Our Lady of Manaoag

2005-08-22T13:28:00.000+08:00

I first heard about Our Lady of Manaoag when I was in highschool. I was browsing a travel magazine when I came across a page containing her picture and a prayer. I was about to join a school competition that time, so I cut the aforementioned portion of the magazine. Luckily or miraculously, I won. From then on, I recite the prayer everytime I need a miracle no matter how minute or gigantic it may be. I remember one time when I was stuck in traffic and I had to be early for an exam. I prayed hard and weird things happened, I arrived late yet the exam commenced right after I arrived. Well, this prayer really works for me though I must say that I don't just recite it, I profess it with all the sincerity that must go with a prayer. After some time I realized that I should pray to her not only to express my intentions, but also to thank her. I've been wanting to pay her a visit but I didn't get the chance to go to Pangasinan. Another strike of luck, last last week my uncle called and said that her image was brought to the Archbishop's palace in Mandaluyong. We immediately went there and prayed. I just want to share this prayer and I hope it touches your life too (don't forget to say your thanks :) ). There may be times when we feel like all of our prayers are left unanswered, but sooner or later we tend to realize that we get what's best for us at the very right time. So just have faith and do the right things. Ika nga nila 'Nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa.'

PRAYER TO OUR LADY OF MANAOAG

Virgin Mother of God, Queen of the most Holy Rosary, Thou who hast chosen to raise thy throne of mercy in Manaoag, to be the beloved protectress and patron of the Province of Pangasinan, and therefrom to bestow thy graces on us thy children, banished in this alley of tears, look down with Thine eyes of mercy upon me, who am beset with so many dangers of body and soul. Despise not my petition O dearest Mother, but intercede for me before thy divine Son now and at the hour of my death. Amen.

VIRGIN OF MANAOAG, Pray for us.
(ask most important favor)

After asking favor, pray
Three (3) Hail Mary's and
Three (3) Glory be to the Father

como estas

2005-08-10T09:34:00.000+08:00

tag-ulan kaya senti senti muna :D

...everything's gonna be fine. Please.. hush now, each tear you shed is worth a stab in my heart.

Hahah there goes your corny line again.

now you're laughing. I mean, seriously... hmmm...remember those tres estrellas?

Yeah, I'll be gazing at the nocturnal skies, seeking for that group of stars that, you said, means 'i love you' and imagine that the very same reflection glimmers in your eyes.

Hey when I say I love you... I mean it, and I mean it forever.

...do tears of joy count?

Miss You
Aaliyah

It's been too long and I'm lost without u
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin' you, wantin' you
(Said I need you)
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school
You up and left me
We were close friends
Also lovers
Did everything
For one another
Now ur gone and I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you
Is ur heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cuz it's

I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
No one here to love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do or be without you

Quote for the Day

2005-08-08T13:28:00.000+08:00

Never fear shadows.
They simply mean there's a light shining somewhere nearby.

-Ruth E. Renkel

Space Talk

2005-08-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

The Tenth Planet

Yesterday an officemate e-mailed me about the discovery of a 'tenth planet.' The planet, which was given a temporary name of "2003UB313," was said to be larger than Pluto. NASA-Funded scientists Mike Brown (Caltech), Chad Trujillo (Gemini Observatory), and David Rabinowitz (Yale University) discovered the aformentioned planet using the Samuel Oschin telescope. It will be visible with a telescope over the next six months.

Bituing Walang Ningning?

Can you recall Irene Mora's story? I believe it was published in several newspapers and if my memory serves me right, I think I saw her interview in a local TV show. Irene Mora is a Filipino-American pilot who was tagged as the 'first Filipina to conquer space.' Many Filipinos took pride in her endeavor most especially when she said that she gave up her American citizenship in order to become a Filipino. Her story didn't end there, the fuss became bigger when denouncing articles surfaced, saying that her story is a hoax. It was said that after conducting an investigation, most of the stuff written about her weren't true.

"...She has not flown on the Space Shuttle in 2000...
...nor is she a Space Adventures' orbital client..."
- pinoyonboard.com

The article about her being the "world's best skydiver" was proven to be veracious, though. Dr. Frank Osanka, president of Friendship Airborne organization validated the story recounting that Mora won a death-defying event over the best skydivers from around the globe.

Well I guess misleading information might have been supplied by either the writer or the interviewee herself. Nevertheless, Mora's accomplishment in her field is something that Filipinos, most especially women, can be proud of.

Here's a neutralized article :).

Space Blogger

I found this glimmering site in Blogs of Note. how I am becoming an astronaut is an online journal of a 23-year old Aerothermal Engineer (isnt that cool?). It kinda reminds me of my dream of becoming an astronomer. You'll find cool shuttle pictures and a life account of a young lad trying to, literally, reach for the stars.

Blurring

2005-07-26T15:43:00.000+08:00

I got this cool photo from a forwarded mail.
Its caption says 'Huwag mong hahayaang lituhin ka ng sitwasyon...'
All of us are confronted by life's perplexities from time to time.
Confusion overcomes us;
and this sometimes leads us to make misguided decisions.
Whatever it is, all i can say is 'be happy.'
Decide and act while you still can,
or drown yourself in 'what if's' and see your future suffer.
Choose the path that will bring you true happiness and peace of mind.
In this way, you won't have any regrets.

carpe diem

Comfort Song

2005-07-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

Most of us have comfort songs that we love to listen to during life's low points. These remind us of people, places or moments that made us feel most secure. This song, dedicated to me by a friend, is one of my favorite comfort songs. Some may find it corny since it's a boyband piece and it's been a teen anthem for quite a while. Nevertheless, I feel relieved whenever I hear this song most especially because of its uplifting message (reminds me of some very good friends that I seldom get in touch with nowadays). This is for you guys :)

This I Promise You
by N Sync

When visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes,
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Is standing here all alone...

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
Ooh.. I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true,
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

When you're down and you feel so alone just remember that you are being thought of, being cared for, and being loved (you might not even be aware of it ;)). Just gaze at the sky and the stars for no matter how far away these people are, you'll realize that you're staring at the same heavens. When in doubt... Pray... it never fails :)

Blood is Blue?!?!

2005-07-07T10:02:00.000+08:00

Last Friday, me and my officemates had our company-provided Annual Physical Examination. I asked Law, just as he finished his blood exam: "is it true that the color of our blood is blue?" He was like "what??!!?? are you serious? it's red." Still tormented by confusing thoughts, I answered him with a bashful question "huhhhhh?"

I remember my college instructor telling the whole class that it's blue; and that it becomes red when it comes into contact with oxygen. Thus, explains the color of our veins.

After some flashbacks, Law responded and told me that he's gonna ask the nurse who took our blood samples. Afraid that they might make a laugh trip out of it, I stuck a magazine into his mouth and told him that I'll just research about it on the net :D.

It seems that I wasn't the only one confused, it's actually a popular misconception. I saw several forums discussing the same topic. Here are a couple of good explanations from Answers.com and from Science Education Partnenrships .

Our blood's color is never blue, though it can range from bright red to deep red. It is bright red when it's oxygenated and deep red when it's not. So it definitely doesn't make our veins blue, the latter are bluish by themselves. Well at least the 'oxygen' part coincided with my professor's statement.

Eh ano naman ung berde ang dugo? ako ba un... ;)

How to make a 'Me'...

2005-07-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

How to make an Anne Kristine

Ingredients:

1 part success

3 parts brilliance

3 parts leadership

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little wisdom if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

I'm All Yours

2005-07-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

I love this song from Kyla's 'Not Your Ordinary Girl' album. A Rachel Lampa original, I'm All Yours is an inspirational song sprinkled with RnB magic.

People have been talking
About what I should do.
But I just can’t listen,
I keep in tune to You.

But I’m not gonna fall;
I’m giving it all to You, my love.
I’m not gonna fall
I’m giving it all to You...
If I fix my eyes on You,
Will You show me what to do?
I’ll lay down my sorrows all on You

If I could make the world
Fade away for just a moment
To be alone with You...
So many voices,
Too many noises,
Too many choices...
Why can’t it be just You and me?

All that I can see is that they’re looking at me,
But all I’ve ever wanted was for You to be
The only Thing that matters in my life to me.
Lord, You know, You know, You know.

Standing in the midst of the crowd, I cry out loud.
Gonna give it all, I’ll be living it out loud.
You are the King and the light in my eyes.
Lord, You know I'll reach out for the prize.. yeah

If I fix my eyes on You
Will You show me what to do?
I’ll lay down my sorrows all on you...

I’m not gonna fall,
I’m giving it all...
I’m not gonna fall,
I’m giving it all....

The Woman Who Survived

2005-06-30T16:41:00.000+08:00

She was known as the 'woman without a face' but after her interview with Oprah, she said that she wanted to be known as the 'woman who survived'. Who are we to contest that?

Carolyn Thomas, 34 years old, was shot by her ex-boyfriend in the face. Her 'before and after' photos were shown in Oprah and from those, you yourself can attest to the tragic transformation of her cara (her eye, cheek, jaw and upper lip were flawed). She was sporty, she got those sexy curves but after some time, because of her ex-bf's extreme jealousy, he asked her to dress up in baggy clothes. It even came to a point when he prohibited her from talking to her 'male' cousins and some immediate family members. Carolyn wasn't allowed to work, and she admitted that she wasn't herself anymore. Her father was not in favor of the guy, he did some background check on the latter and results weren't good. Later in the relationship her mother decided to move in with them; this somehow gave her comforting arms. She considered threats like 'i'll kill you if you leave me' sweet during that time but after four years, at gunpoint, she thought otherwise. Still she continued to live with him, the relationship lasted for eight years. It ended one horrifying night. He came home asking who their male companion was. Carolyn swore there were only three of them in the house, but he didn't believe her. He fumbled for the gun, then shot her mother, the most important person in her life. After that, he turned to Carolyn and shot her in the face. Her mother managed to ask for help from their neighbor, who then called 911. Carolyn realized that she was in a hospital when she woke up. She asked where her mother was... they told her she didn't survive. She got curious and tried to tinker with the bondage on her face, only to find out that half of her face was gone.

Her ex-boyfriend was convicted and was given a life sentence. After the judge delivered the decision, Carolyn was allowed to read a letter to his ex. Despite the pain of losing half of her face and her precious mother, Carolyn said that she had forgiven him.

Truly, Carolyn is a survivor. Instead of doubting her life's purpose, she dauntlessly lives, sharing her lesson to the world. Aside from this, she managed to forgive someone who has done such a devastating thing, it takes enormous courage to do that. Like what Oprah said, each and every woman should learn from her experience. Physical abuse is never a sweet thing. If you think that someone does such an act because he or she loves you, think again. It always boils down to respect. I know that women are more open-eyed about these things nowadays compared to previous decades. I just hope that it won't have to take another carolyn to make a wake up call and bring us to full awareness of this issue.

During the interview it was said that Carolyn will be undergong 5 surgeries. Talking isn't easy for her. She said that she has to relearn her alphabet for others to understand her better. She nourishes herself with the use of a tube which delivers food directly to her stomach. Slowly, she's beginning to eat through her mouth again. Surgeons said that no one can make the original form of her face go back, but at least they can do some things that can make life better for Carolyn.

Wanna know more about her? Go to The Insider.
Or watch video clips from the Oprah episode.

The Secret Keeper

2005-06-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

Ever wanted to share a secret with the whole world, yet you're disturbed that anyone would know you're its bearer?

I came across this mysterious blog - PostSecret. It exhibits secrets, probably sent in by people from around the globe. Quite ironic, but if you try to peruse the postcards you'll realize that most of these secrets are our own realities. Go ahead, share yours.

Look what I found on ebay... the last chicken nugget for a cause. :D

Bohemian Chic and Jessie Han Pinays

2005-06-21T17:31:00.001+08:00

As we wandered the roads of Tsim Sha Shui, me and my sister realized that we wouldn't be finding any cool pants even if made our feet sore from walking. Stores bargained flamboyant skirts instead. No, not those microminis.. I'm talking about 'below the knee-length' skirts accentuated by lacy designs; to match those skirts were gypsy-inspired blouses and layered tops. Even though the elaborate fashion statement wasn't much of a fad here in the Philippines during that time, my sisters managed to buy some of those bohos. A few days later, I happen to read Cosmo's May-June Wearit issue, they featured the same trend in the said insert. "Bohemian Fashion" that's what it's called.

Now it's starting to conquer the Philippine fashion arena (even gracing SM Makati's theme). Actually, the very first person that came into my mind when I saw this ensemble was jen. I think I saw her in this attire on jep's birthday.. (trendsetter? hahah). True enough, she already bought a bohemian skirt and even told me that there are inexpensive finds in tutuban. Well, I'm not really a skirty person but if you gals are on the look out, better stick to her suggestion. After all, bohemian is never a deviant.

Last last friday me and my batchmates had our 'get together tradition.' While the boys waited outside me and my gal pals had our regular chikas in the washroom.

Jen:(to jowan) ang gorgeous ng lola ko..

Jowan: sabi ng officemate ko 'bakit parang paling ung pony tail mo?' sabi ko naman.. 'gaga style yan'

me: hahah cute nga eh, you look like Jessie Han...

Who is Jessie Han? She is the character played by Song Hye Kyo in GMA's Full House (a cutie koreanovela). Her fashion sense is slowly influencing Pinays' choice of get-up. When I say Jessie's style, I mean heels, colorful layered tops, short girly dresses, one-sided pony tail, and her bolero trademark (like the one in the pic). Quite surprising, I guess Filipinas are really way over Mari Mar when San Cai came into scene; and this is not only visible in their choice of telenovelas, but also in the way they dress up. Yup, they are now open to, not only Western but Eastern fashion as well.

Enjoy these vogue trends... but don't forget to don your best accessory -- SMILE.

doldrums

2005-06-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

0 task for today, 0 pending from yesterday, 0 assignment for tomorrow. Here are some suggestions to help you rip out boredom from an eight-hour work day...

7. Ever helped a guzzler? well, here's your chance. "The object of the game is to keep him walking, without falling over, by using your mouse from left to right or right to left - you can't see your mouse which makes it more difficult. Apparently the record is 82 meters!" Good luck!

6. If you've tried number seven and you've gone nuts because the farthest you've been from the starting line is 8 meters, here's a less challenging one ... did i say LESS challenging?

5. Answer the Enstein Quiz and see if you have the makings of a genius.

4. Bring out the da vinci in you... doodle with artistic tools or simply browse artpad's gallery.

3. Still disappointed for not catching you're fave movie? Try reading some scripts as you while away your time.

2. Widen your knowledge.. read some tutorials. This is what i usually do.. haha i saw raised eyebrows there.

1. create a blog... do i need to explain further? ;)

Still bored? try this.

*thanks to my doldrums buddies for all of these ideas...

recepcion a mi mundo

2005-06-16T15:03:00.000+08:00

dictionary : "austerity in embellishment"

thesaurus : "modesty, plainness, simpleness, unassumingness, unostentatiousness, unpretentiousness"

wikipedia : "the property, condition, or quality of being simple or un-combined; often connotes beauty"

While all of the definitions above may be valid, sencillez, for me, is the capability to be contented with what you have. It is seeing life sans its intricacies; being thankful for the littlest things.

Waking up by the sound of chirping birds, the bliss brought by your children's embrace, the smile on the face of a sufferer battling cancer, a father's tears upon seeing his firstborn... these are what sencillez is all about.

God is infinitely simple.
-Thomas Aquinas