My Sacrifice

I don't usually write entries about my personal life but I guess now is a perfect timing to do so. Last Monday I turned 23. I can say that in the past years, life has been so good to me. Good doesn't necessarily mean that I got all I wanted when I wanted them. Like everyone else, it has been a roller coaster ride. It had its ups and downs. I know that there were times when my faith was tested. But still I did my best to lay my sorrows on Him. Im so happy and grateful for everything that I am and for everything that I have right now. I thank God for giving me another year to appreciate the matchless beauty brought by His power. In order to show my gratitude I'll face the world with renewed hope. Raych once told me, 'don't lose hope, think about those cancer patients who never gave up their fight.'

It maybe a coincidence, but right now I can say that my Nanay's condition serves as my inspiration to continue my fight. Nanay Emma, my grandma, is a very religious lady who has this very contagious quality of being jolly. One time our grandfather teased her "you're like a saint, everybody rushes to you and shout your name out everytime you arrive." She's a very hands-on grandma. She had her part well played in raising ALL of her grandchildren. A week ago I was asked to accompany her for her biopsy. I was somehow nervous but right after we prayed the rosary I saw courage on her face, l was relieved. "Hindi tayo pababayaan ng Diyos," she said. A few days ago the result was released. It wasn't exactly what we hoped for -- advanced stage of cancer.

Though her physical and medical condition are visibly worse, you'll never see a trace of shaken faith on her. This really inspires me and it brought me to a realization. I'll fix my eyes on Him, surrender all to Him. I'll be strong amidst all the trials. No matter how painful things can be in this life, I'll accept His will with open arms. I'll even give up on things that bring selfish happiness for me especially for those efforts that go in vain. I wish I can trade all the triumphs for my grandma's betterment... and for the happiness of all the people whom she inspires. But I know that everything happens for a reason, and that there is no greater planner than the One above. As for me, I'll continue my journey and see the lighter things out of everything. My friends asked me if I had a 'happy birthday,' I said "yes, maybe not the type of happiness that you are expecting, but being given another year to spend with your family and friends is a reason enough to be happy." I thank my family, my friends and most of all Him for everything.


i'm all yours.

I've been tagged...

I've been tagged by Markku. I have to post 20 random facts about me then tag the same amount of people as minutes it took me to write the facts.



1. I'm faithful (though I don't consider myself religous)... I believe that God is omnipotent, benevolent, and above all He is a very good friend.

2. I'm gay = babaeng bakla. I love hangin' around with gays and I enjoy speaking gay lingo.

3. I've worked for Jollibee megamall, Jollibee edsa, Kenny Rogers, Pizza Hut while I was a student; I had my ojt at Pasig Public Library and ABS-CBN; I've worked for a call center and then Rockwell after I graduated. I’m currently working for *** heheh... hindi ako workaholic eh, sa totoo lang ayokong magtrabaho... haaay i miss all the friends i've met along the way.

4. I took up ice hockey lessons (ice hockey not figure skating okay?)

5. I believe in diplomacy. Violence and angst will bring humankind nowhere. This applies to the littlest things.. like cursing.. I really don’t think it does any good even if it’s just a spur of the moment thingy.

6. The thought of Christmas makes me cry (I dont know why).

7. I used to join lots of singing and drawing contests when I was young.

8. I hate people who aren't responsible/brave enough to express their true feelings and viewpoints when talking to the ones concerned yet unstoppably say crazy things when the latter turn their backs.

9. I have sensitive skin.. (I'm supposed to be allergic to detergents, softdrinks, food color, oily food hahah) so I can't live without a lotion..unscented that is, because even scented lotion causes irritation.

10. I like to relearn the Spanish language and my ultimate dream is to go to Spain.

11. Most people see me as a 'suplada' well in fact i'm ‘makulit’... (shy lang ako maggreet most of the time).

12. I'm a consistent scholar from gradeschool 'til college (hahah yabang) and I find it more flattering when people appreciate me because of that than because of things that meet the eye.

13. I've been a lector (for Catholic mass) and I want to continue being one but my schedule doesn't permit me.

14. I looooove babies.

15. I know that sharing my opinion doesn't hurt but I must say that I'm not comfortable giving advice to other people. I find it hard to impose things on someone especially when I know that the only person who knows the real score is he, himself. Besides, a person who has a problem only hears things he wants to hear. The best advice I can give is 'do whatever makes you happy.'

16. I want to learn how to play the violin.

17. I value my friends so much (even those that I seldom see nowadays) .. to the point that I think I become too gullible. I just love having fun with them.. like singing to the max even if we go out of tune.. or simply laughing our hearts out over the cheapest food.

18. I'm kikay but not maarte.

19. I love my family so much. It may not be that 'breakfast cereal commercial' type but I'm proud of everything we've been through.

20. I believe in unconditional love and I haven't lost hope on true love.




That's it! :) I'll tag ... Eric, Gerard, Nolan, Shibs, Vic.

Sam, Sam, Sam

this is for you raych, whether you like it or not hahah


All of kuya's girls were dumbfounded when he entered the house. Does he look familiar? He's the cutie in close-up's latest ad. He's also the lead guy in Barbie's 'Just A Smile' music video. Sam Lloyd Milby, born on May 23, 1984, is from Ohio (his mom is originally from Surigao). He was invited to join the cast of Pinoy Big Brother when Jenny exited because of her father's critical medical condition.

He is unattached, actually he just had a break up with his girl (who resides in the US) upon finding out that the latter fell for somebody else while he was away. When asked who among the PBB girls was attractive, he said that he finds Say cute though meddling with other's relationship is not his cup of tea. You should hear him speak French ;) He's a good figure skater. He plays the guitar well and he has a voice to match... shall I continue?

The list may go on but I guess what makes this guy a 'kilabot' is that he's so humble despite his remarkable talents and cool qualities. As his cousin would put it, "Sam is a beautiful person. He's beautiful inside and out."



Some of Sam's skating tricks

hardy har har

got this mail from a friend... :D

Fire authorities in California found a corpse in a burned out section of forest while assessing the damage done by a forest fire. The deceased male was dressed in a full wet suit, complete with scuba tanks on hisback, flippers, and face mask in the middle of the forest. Apost-mortem test revealed that the man died not from burns, but from massive internal injuries. Dental records provided a positive identification. Investigators then set about to determine how a fully clad diver ended up inthe middle of a forest fire. It was revealed that on the day of the fire, the man went diving off the coast, some 20 miles from the forest. The firefighters, seeking to control the fire as quickly as possible, had called in a fleet of helicopters with very large dip buckets. Water was dipped from the ocean and emptied at the site of the forest fire. You guessed it. One minute our diver was making like Flipper in the Pacific, the next, he was doing the breast stroke in a fire dip bucket 300 feet in the air and then air borne into smoke heaven. Some days it just doesn't pay to get out of bed.

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